Melon-collie

I called my mom today to discuss details about transferring schools, and I asked to speak to my youngest sister and brother. My brother cried. I asked him what he was crying about, and he said it was because I was leaving. I cried. Never have I felt so strongly that I am leaving everything that I know or have ever known. It's an exhilerating feeling- the fact that I am about to explore the unknown, as I have always wanted to. But it also leaves me melancholy, as my life-long friends and family will soon be merely acquaintances. It makes me wish that I had been around when they wanted me to be. It makes me wish that I had put everything I had into every relationship I had, while I had the chance. It makes me want to be different in any new friendships I may form in that new place, the unknown place. It makes me want to do mission work. It makes me want to love my God with the passion I had when He first showed Himself to me. It makes me want to be a better and bigger person. I've been blessed with the most wonderful life I could've asked for, and it was hand-picked for me by my first Love. I can't wait to see what He has in store for me. :)