I think something is wrong with me....
It doesn't matter if I like someone a lot, I mess it up. At the start, I naturally get embarrassed for some reason and end up ignoring them. I'll make sure I'm still present when they're around (Haha ;)), but I almost refuse to look at them when they're in the same room as me. Honestly, that rule is so tried and true with me that if there is ever a person in the same room as me that I am sitting by and hanging out with but rarely look at or have one-on-one conversation with, you can be assured that I have a thing for them. Haha WHY DO I DO THIS?!!!! And then after a while of this, they try extra hard to get my attention because they think I'm one of the "untouchables" (competitive human mindset - we want what we can't have) and then..... I think they're doing that because they like me! So all this pent up "like" comes into play and I end up doing things that I wouldn't normally do- things that I'm not sure if I'm okay with or not. But then, to the guy, it just looks like the minute they pursued me, I threw myself at them, when that is not the case. I most likely have been timidly tip-toeing around them for a while and making sure that I liked them, and then just got over-excited at the thought of them liking me back.
Why doesn't anyone write songs about being scare of love and how dysfunctional we can get? Or am I the only one? :(
It doesn't matter if I like someone a lot, I mess it up. At the start, I naturally get embarrassed for some reason and end up ignoring them. I'll make sure I'm still present when they're around (Haha ;)), but I almost refuse to look at them when they're in the same room as me. Honestly, that rule is so tried and true with me that if there is ever a person in the same room as me that I am sitting by and hanging out with but rarely look at or have one-on-one conversation with, you can be assured that I have a thing for them. Haha WHY DO I DO THIS?!!!! And then after a while of this, they try extra hard to get my attention because they think I'm one of the "untouchables" (competitive human mindset - we want what we can't have) and then..... I think they're doing that because they like me! So all this pent up "like" comes into play and I end up doing things that I wouldn't normally do- things that I'm not sure if I'm okay with or not. But then, to the guy, it just looks like the minute they pursued me, I threw myself at them, when that is not the case. I most likely have been timidly tip-toeing around them for a while and making sure that I liked them, and then just got over-excited at the thought of them liking me back.
Why doesn't anyone write songs about being scare of love and how dysfunctional we can get? Or am I the only one? :(
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