It's funny how a fast a dynamic can change; and suddenly there's no going back to what it was. Hard times show who people really are - yourself and others. And unfortunately, all of us are flawed and usually not very pretty at heart.
...I don't honestly believe in reincarnation, though it would be awesome...
Rambling... Haha Anywho, BOTTOM LINE IS you have one life to live, and that life isn't worth spending stressed out about things you can't change. So I want to make the most of every day I'm here, and enjoy my life instead of stressing about what could be or anything of that nature. That's not an excuse to leave when things get hard or to turn your back on anything. Merely a point being noted that most of the things that we freak out about as humans are really not that big of a deal in the long-run. You have to ask yourself, "Is it worth stressing about?" I've stressed about things for the past nine months, and I've found that while I have learned some things, I mainly have become much more bitter and heartbroken over things that are not a part of my life anymore, as a rule. My philosophy in life is to do the things that you love and if you're not 100% behind something, DO. NOT. DO. IT. I can't say how many times I have said "All in or all out." And that's not a 'that's what she said,' perv. ;) I'd rather look back on my life and be able to honestly say that I did what I loved and really enjoyed every bit of my life than to know that I chose to put up a fight to either keep something or willingly let something go... but regret the decision. I don't really know what that means for me right now, but.
It's an odd feeling to have a peace or resolve. But I guess I'm glad it's there. I've worked towards this point for a year now, and I finally feel like I'm excited about where life will lead me again. It feels like memories leaving me though. Like a chapter of my life closing all of a sudden... when I didn't even realize it was coming.
I guess everyone has to grow up at some point.
And to turn this post around so I'm not officially depressed for the rest of the day... uhhhh... I am recently getting really into Ryan Adams' music? Yeah! It's GRRRRREAT!
And as a little pick me up... look upon my fine friend, Jack White, who looks as if he speaks my language - the language of the awkward soul.
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