i want a bangle

Firstly, I think I would have been great friends with Edie Sedgwick. I really do. I feel like it's a friendship I missed out on because I was born in the wrong generation.

Second of all, there is something so disappointing about friendships dying. I'd like to think that the reason I have my group of good friends is because I thought they were worth all the time I could put into that friendship and vice versa- and we meant something to each other. Like they would've chosen me if they had the choice of being my friend or doing something else. But when it becomes apparent that past friends no longer think the friendship is worth their time... it's just so sad. Granted, everyone changes, everyone gets older, etc. But I hate watching something fall out of my reach. And then there is the question, is this friendship worth fighting for if I'm the only one fighting for it? You feel some sense of martyrdom when all you want is comradery. It's one of the saddest things I can think of- up there with growing old and losing your memory.

Thirdly, I ate lunch with a lady that looked like she had tiny beads for her eyes. They were so shiny and small and perfect. It was baffling.

"It's been a long, long time since I memorized your face. It's been four hours now since I wandered through your place. And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe. And when you bring the blankets, I cover up my face. I do. Love you. I do. Love you. And when you play guitar, I listen to the strings buzz. The metal vibrates underneath your fingers. And when you crochet, I feel mesmerized and proud. And don't say I love you by saying it out loud. It's hard. So I won't say it at all. And I won't stay very long. But you are the life I needed all along; I think of you as my brother although that sounds dumb. Words are futile devices."

I can't begin to explain what a heartbreak you were...

Blub

Cherokee
Originally uploaded by Randy Mora

Bonnaroo tickets - purchased.

Stick + poke tattoo - received.

Apartment Search - dwindling for now.

Quotes for the day:

"I guess I've never seen a modern-day bayonet. It sounds like a delicious dessert."

"That city reminds me of my personality in city form. Like a citynality."

That being said, I love my buds and our odd conversations. They really are the best.

Bonnaroo and the Likes

Hot Air Balloon Festival 2011
Originally uploaded by Sir Mervs

Hey... It's getting close to spring. :)

I have so many things that I want to do this year.

*1. Bonnaroo is June 9th - 12th in Manchester, TN. This year, the line up includes such bands as Arcade Fire, The Black Keys, Mumford & Sons, The Strokes, The Decemberists, Gogol Bordello, Florence and the Machine, Cold War Kids, Devotchka.... Basically, it will be amazing.

*2. I want to go sky-diving at some point this summer. I've been looking up information on it today. There's a place in Vivian that offers prices ranging from $170 to $230. Ouch.

3. Record a record that I love.

4. Use some different form of transportation than I am accustomed to. I want to hop on a bus this weekend. Or save up and fly or take a train ride.

*5. Be homeless for a couple of days. You know, sleep on a street or sleep outside in a sleeping bag. I think I'll drive to Arkansas and camp for a couple of nights and then just sleep somewhere for a night. Sounds good and exciting.

*Anyone is free to join. That is, as long as I know you or you're not a creeper, of course.

OFFICIAL POWER ANIMAL

Lady Squirrel
Originally uploaded by wee3beasties

Who am I kidding?... I looked up the bio of Julian Casablancas, Jack White and Aaron Weiss today. As well as pictures of them and Courtney Love, randomly? Also John Anthony Gillis (aka Jack White) has an obsession with the number 3, which is why he starting signing his name Jack White III. I, in turn, have an obsession with Jack White.

Also, I HATE Glee. I caught about fifteen minutes of it last night (for the first time) and literally thought it was a joke. All time dumbest, most dramatic show on television. I rate it with shows from the Disney channel. Honestly, it was horrible. I just took great joy in deleting it permanently from my computer at work. I'm ashamed to be using a hard drive that was so defiled. I am now listening to Kenny G's Christmas album "Faith - A Holiday Album." And loving every second of it. !] I can't wait to upload my music at work. Haha

Oh, and my power animal is a squirrel. Look at him just hangin out with his corn. What of it?

What Kind of Tapper Are You, Fancy Pants?

train depot (hattiesburg, ms)
Originally uploaded by heatherstockett

Belle and Sebastian

I feel like Belle and Sebastian are people that I know. Their music is not huge. But I connect with it on an odd level. Not that I want to write music like them necessarily, but just that I adore all of them as individuals. I feel as though they are long-lost friends. Their music reminds me of travel, reminds me of tour, reminds me of being on my own but looking forward to things. It makes me happy and sad all at the same time. I love them. Oh, and I just found out that Carey Mulligan (who I also adore) sang the lead female's part on the title track of their new album, released at the end of last year. Can't wait to own it.

Tour
I remember a particular time on the Family Fun Tour with Cory Taylor Cox where we walked around Hattiesburg, Mississippi for an entire day and were bored out of our minds waiting for a show that night. When you're on tour, it is assumed that you will not eat until there is free food somewhere. It usually pans out all right. However, at this point I was very hungry and hadn't eaten in a couple days. I had roughly $4 cash left for the rest of the tour that I had been saving for emergency food. But the bakery in Hattiesburg had this wonderful looking fruit tart. I'd never had a fruit tart, but all of a sudden (I guess I thought of Alice in Wonderland or some other movie from my childhood), I HAD to have that fruit tart! Spent the whole $4 on one tart and was poor and starving for the rest of the tour. But the fruit tart was worth it. :) We took our Family Fun Tour picture at this same train station. I miss tour. :)

Tipp-Tapp

I found a note that I wrote for myself in my phone that was originally intended to remind me to post on this next bit. Whoah, that sounded like a run-on. But it says something about "people tapping with the front of their foot and others with the back." .....Doesn't sound as interesting anymore. But I'll finish the thought. Most people, when listening to a live show, tap their foot to the beat, whether they intend to or not. However, some people tap with the front of their foot. Lightly going to the beat. Others tap with the back of their foot. Slamming it down as if they're losing their balance all the while. And I was wondering as to the differences in personality of people who tap with the front or the back of their foot. Perhaps it's musicians and non-musicians, or drummers and pianists, or athletes and secretaries. I'm not exactly sure, and I don't think it really matters. But it is a thought. So much of my day consists of thoughts like these. For the record, I tap with the back of my foot.

Dar Dar

Faces 2
Originally uploaded by michaelish

So I realized today that I am entirely too familiar with "business conversations." I'm so tired of conversations about the weather or how the holidays were... When can we talk about how often people use the restroom, how ol' boy's fly is down, or about my boss's hidden tattoo? Why do we have to wear fancy clothes to sit at computers all day? I don't care. I take off my shoes and put my feet up in my stiff chair with me every day. I'm not stiff. I have drawings tacked onto my carpeted cubicle frame. What of it? I think of it as "personality coming out" versus "disrespect." Don't push me, motha licka.

So I'm going to the show of my dear friend and fellow musician (Adam Dale) tonight at City Bar. Adam is one of the best vocalists I know, and is an amazing guitarist as well. He just released a new album entitled Pelican, I believe. It seems to be more poppy than his previously released album, which consists of more quirky, indie guitar-driven songs. However, I am PUMPED to hear his new stuff! If you're reading this and live in Shreveport, LA (chances are slim) COME!!! It will be a blast, I promise. :)

Travel Babble

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Originally uploaded by Joseph O John

...I found myself jumping in the elevator at work today... Full force. High jumps. Laughing Chelsea. Who does that?!

Devotchka (one of my favorite bands) is something out of the past. Something that America forgot about. It sounds like a stroll in Paris. And sometimes like a walk in Madrid.

I want to go so many places.