Antelopes are Missionaries

I like her legs. And her clothes. Doopedoopedoo

Sometimes, I imagine myself as a crazy person- I pretend I'm seeing things, talking to imaginary people- just to see what it would feel like, see how honest I could be with myself, and to ensure my imagination stays in good form.

Maybe that makes me a crazy person.


"Life should not be a journey to the grave
with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in broadside in a cloud of smoke,
thoroughly used up,
totally worn out,
and loudly proclaiming
'Wow! What a Ride!'"

- Hunter S. Thompson

My seven-year-old self would be so proud of me.

"Someone told me it's all happening at the zoo.

I do believe it.

I do believe it's true."

Wallace Lake Dam Last Summer

I literally watched this child push his stroller a good 30 feet attempting to throw either the stroller or both he and his stroller down onto the sharp rocks holding back the water from Wallace Lake Dam. Sad thing is, I didn't think to rescue him (that's the parents job, right? :/); I merely took pictures. I'm such a horrible person I guess.

I just had a flash back to me being in Sunday School as a kid and me taking every opportunity to use dams as examples of life lessons in class.... Just so I could say dam (cuz it sounds like damn, but I couldn't get in trouble for it.) Hoo hoo

So I don't have lung cancer or that long word that starts with an "s" that I posted about. I have Pleurisy caused by two sprained muscles in my back... from doing whatever I do that is hard-core enough to sprain muscles unbeknownst to me.... Anyway, both of those things are easily corrected, so all is well. :) And I'm not sure if cortisone shots have some kind of amazingness in them or not, but today is the best day I've had in a long while!

It's tempting to look back on life and count certain months as some of the "Best Times of Your Life." You know, the times when all the world was right, when you couldn't stop smiling, when you loved everything you did, and everything seemed to love you back. This picture would have been taken at one of those times. It's an odd feeling because sometimes I wish that I, in present times, could've told myself back then what I know now. ("Ooo La La" by The Coors) But I don't even know if I would tell myself what would happen. Life is too great of a thing not to live it to the fullest, even if you end up regretting it later. At least you know you really lived.

David Bowie

David Bowie, originally uploaded by wnick87.

...Any day of the week...

And I get to go to the doctor today. I've been having problems breathing for the last week (my lungs, chest and back hurt really bad 24/7, but no congestion or anything) and recently found out that my dad had sarcoidosis... And all my symptoms are spot on with sarcoidosis, which is a lung disease which has no cure. Slightly worried.

What is up with 80's movies never being funny?

I walk the line (365/197), originally uploaded by JenniPenni.

Why does everyone have so much fun talking about themselves?! I know I am guilty of it too, but I think it's so hilarious that humans find the need to call or write about their day, what they had to eat last night, or what new item of clothing they bought. And it's not that we just mention it in passing. No, we go into detail.

"Well, I was supposed to meet my friend at Target at like* 4... and they didn't get there til like* 4:20. (makes wide-eyed stern face). And so we got to Olive Garden late and there was like* a line outside the door. It was ridiculous. But the food was really good. We got horrible service, but..."

......Seriously?! SHUT UP!!!!! WE DIDN'T GO WITH YOU!!!! WE DON'T CARE!!!!! SHUT UPPPPPP!!!!! Like you're seriously that interesting of a person that everyone is dying to know about YOUR day to day just so they can feel like they're part of it. It's just funny. We know no one will be interested, but it doesn't stop us from wanting to tell people our stories anyway. We're so dumb as a race.

That being said I hate the past 24 hours! Yeah, you suck. And don't come back. :)

*Obvious high IQ

i want a bangle

Firstly, I think I would have been great friends with Edie Sedgwick. I really do. I feel like it's a friendship I missed out on because I was born in the wrong generation.

Second of all, there is something so disappointing about friendships dying. I'd like to think that the reason I have my group of good friends is because I thought they were worth all the time I could put into that friendship and vice versa- and we meant something to each other. Like they would've chosen me if they had the choice of being my friend or doing something else. But when it becomes apparent that past friends no longer think the friendship is worth their time... it's just so sad. Granted, everyone changes, everyone gets older, etc. But I hate watching something fall out of my reach. And then there is the question, is this friendship worth fighting for if I'm the only one fighting for it? You feel some sense of martyrdom when all you want is comradery. It's one of the saddest things I can think of- up there with growing old and losing your memory.

Thirdly, I ate lunch with a lady that looked like she had tiny beads for her eyes. They were so shiny and small and perfect. It was baffling.

"It's been a long, long time since I memorized your face. It's been four hours now since I wandered through your place. And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe. And when you bring the blankets, I cover up my face. I do. Love you. I do. Love you. And when you play guitar, I listen to the strings buzz. The metal vibrates underneath your fingers. And when you crochet, I feel mesmerized and proud. And don't say I love you by saying it out loud. It's hard. So I won't say it at all. And I won't stay very long. But you are the life I needed all along; I think of you as my brother although that sounds dumb. Words are futile devices."

I can't begin to explain what a heartbreak you were...

Blub

Cherokee
Originally uploaded by Randy Mora

Bonnaroo tickets - purchased.

Stick + poke tattoo - received.

Apartment Search - dwindling for now.

Quotes for the day:

"I guess I've never seen a modern-day bayonet. It sounds like a delicious dessert."

"That city reminds me of my personality in city form. Like a citynality."

That being said, I love my buds and our odd conversations. They really are the best.

Bonnaroo and the Likes

Hot Air Balloon Festival 2011
Originally uploaded by Sir Mervs

Hey... It's getting close to spring. :)

I have so many things that I want to do this year.

*1. Bonnaroo is June 9th - 12th in Manchester, TN. This year, the line up includes such bands as Arcade Fire, The Black Keys, Mumford & Sons, The Strokes, The Decemberists, Gogol Bordello, Florence and the Machine, Cold War Kids, Devotchka.... Basically, it will be amazing.

*2. I want to go sky-diving at some point this summer. I've been looking up information on it today. There's a place in Vivian that offers prices ranging from $170 to $230. Ouch.

3. Record a record that I love.

4. Use some different form of transportation than I am accustomed to. I want to hop on a bus this weekend. Or save up and fly or take a train ride.

*5. Be homeless for a couple of days. You know, sleep on a street or sleep outside in a sleeping bag. I think I'll drive to Arkansas and camp for a couple of nights and then just sleep somewhere for a night. Sounds good and exciting.

*Anyone is free to join. That is, as long as I know you or you're not a creeper, of course.

OFFICIAL POWER ANIMAL

Lady Squirrel
Originally uploaded by wee3beasties

Who am I kidding?... I looked up the bio of Julian Casablancas, Jack White and Aaron Weiss today. As well as pictures of them and Courtney Love, randomly? Also John Anthony Gillis (aka Jack White) has an obsession with the number 3, which is why he starting signing his name Jack White III. I, in turn, have an obsession with Jack White.

Also, I HATE Glee. I caught about fifteen minutes of it last night (for the first time) and literally thought it was a joke. All time dumbest, most dramatic show on television. I rate it with shows from the Disney channel. Honestly, it was horrible. I just took great joy in deleting it permanently from my computer at work. I'm ashamed to be using a hard drive that was so defiled. I am now listening to Kenny G's Christmas album "Faith - A Holiday Album." And loving every second of it. !] I can't wait to upload my music at work. Haha

Oh, and my power animal is a squirrel. Look at him just hangin out with his corn. What of it?