Banksy
So, there is a particular song that I wrote called "Don't Grow Old Without Me" (WHICH WILL BE ON MY NEW ALBUM WHICH WILL BE FINISHED IN A FEW MONTHS!!!) and it was a love song written about all of the things I would miss about a particular person if they ceased to be in my life anymore. And, thanks to how my psychic mind works, he ceases to be a part of my life anymore. But the cool thing is, I sang the song for him while he was still a part of my life... And all of those things he heard me sing to him - about him - that I said I would miss, I was dead on. It's been a horrendous few months- the hardest I've ever had in my life. And it's a very sad story. I usually make a point not to say what the song is about when I'm playing a set; I also usually think about something entirely different while I'm singing that song. However, I explained in detail what the song was about before I sang it last week. Several people teared up... including me. It felt very vulnerable. It made me feel like a child. But it made me realize that those songs - the love songs that flowed so easily from me before - comprised merely a chapter of my life. A wonderful chapter of my life, but there really are so many.
There's a quote that is from some TV show (don't look it up - it looks dumb), but the quote is, "Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before."
Weird thing is I knew what a broken heart felt like before it happened. I just wish I could feel that happiness again that I felt before all of it happened. I've always lived in the future or in the past. The present never feels memorable. But now, in the present, I look back to my past and wish I would've lived FULLY in the present while it was so beautiful.
Having said that, I don't think that my present is too terribly memorable as of now, but you never know the days or months that you will remember forever. Sometimes the ordinary things seem the sweetest later on in life. And so, for that, I'm going to live my present to the fullest. Why not make something beautiful to remember?
So, there is a particular song that I wrote called "Don't Grow Old Without Me" (WHICH WILL BE ON MY NEW ALBUM WHICH WILL BE FINISHED IN A FEW MONTHS!!!) and it was a love song written about all of the things I would miss about a particular person if they ceased to be in my life anymore. And, thanks to how my psychic mind works, he ceases to be a part of my life anymore. But the cool thing is, I sang the song for him while he was still a part of my life... And all of those things he heard me sing to him - about him - that I said I would miss, I was dead on. It's been a horrendous few months- the hardest I've ever had in my life. And it's a very sad story. I usually make a point not to say what the song is about when I'm playing a set; I also usually think about something entirely different while I'm singing that song. However, I explained in detail what the song was about before I sang it last week. Several people teared up... including me. It felt very vulnerable. It made me feel like a child. But it made me realize that those songs - the love songs that flowed so easily from me before - comprised merely a chapter of my life. A wonderful chapter of my life, but there really are so many. There's a quote that is from some TV show (don't look it up - it looks dumb), but the quote is, "Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before."
Weird thing is I knew what a broken heart felt like before it happened. I just wish I could feel that happiness again that I felt before all of it happened. I've always lived in the future or in the past. The present never feels memorable. But now, in the present, I look back to my past and wish I would've lived FULLY in the present while it was so beautiful.
Having said that, I don't think that my present is too terribly memorable as of now, but you never know the days or months that you will remember forever. Sometimes the ordinary things seem the sweetest later on in life. And so, for that, I'm going to live my present to the fullest. Why not make something beautiful to remember?
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