It’s okay to be selfish.
It’s okay to take my time.
I don’t owe anyone any explanation for the way I am or
the way I feel.
Sure, I should be a work in progress and be actively
bettering myself. But right now, I am
enjoying loving myself. I am enjoying
loving my daughter.
And I see no reason to rush learning lessons that I
undoubtedly will learn in due time.
I can take my time regarding what I want to do in my
life. As long as I’m moving forward and
doing it for ME and my DAUGHTER, then nothing else really matters and I don’t
owe anyone else an explanation.
You can try to make me feel bad for doing what makes me
happy. But it doesn’t make me feel
anything at all really.
I don’t owe you anything at all.
I’ve got everything I need. And some day, if I feel as if I need more, I
will make that decision on my own.
Because it’s a decision only I can make.
(It’s odd looking at this situation from a view point
that is typically the other person’s view point).
But I don’t feel bad.
And I don’t feel like I need to apologize.
And seeing someone pout about my decisions is the biggest turn off and
makes me know I did the right thing.
Because if I can hold my head high and have confidence in
my decisions, that means I have grown—that I am becoming the woman I want to
be and the kind of woman that I RESPECT.
I make mistakes.
All of the time. But recognizing
those mistakes and making them right and NOT beating yourself up about them is
a much more productive way of looking at life than wondering what could be or
what could’ve been.
The way things are is the way things are and the way
things CAN BE is totally up to me and me alone.
I hold the keys to my future.
So don’t try to steal my keys and then pout when I don’t
give them to you.
Love your own life.
I love mine.
(Feeling free and empowered and loving my life and the people
that are in it. Don’t mind me).
I want to travel. I want to recycle. I want to be healthy. I want to be involved. I want to be active. I want to be a good mom. I want to make music. I want to make art. I want to make things with my garden. I want to see the earth and the things we are given from it as coming full circle.
If you hold me back from these things and tell me you love me, I think really you just love your idea of me.
And I don't think that you need to be a part of my vision for my life.
And that is fine. I love my life and what I have created for myself. And that feels better than making anyone else happy.
This is the first time in my life that I feel this way. And it's so satisfying.
