It seems that I have a habit of causing heartbreak wherever I go. It's a history of breaking my own heart over the same mistake (falling for people that don't like me near as much as I like them), and breaking good people's hearts that like me a lot and treat me wonderfully. I don't know why this is. I can't explain it. I don't like it. I don't know how to change it. I always think maybe "this time" is different. And it always turns out the same. I'd like to think one day it will be just right. I believe in "it" enough to say that. But all I've ever known has let me down. Sometimes, even myself.
I just want to be by myself for a little while.
I promise you couldn't hate me as much as I hate myself right now.
Believe me, I'd like to be a normal person too.
